There it dangles, the tiny skeleton,
dancing on its tiny noose, haunting me.
It hangs from your rear view mirror,
reflecting the past into the present.
Skeletons are meant to remain hidden
under layers of skin and despair and false hopes.
But you drag them out,
grinning, heckling, getting off on reactions.
Getting off on pain,
you brag about your conquests of physical and psychological and sexual
abuse.
There it dangles, the tiny skeleton
dancing on its tiny noose, haunting me.
Bobbing in front of the mirror,
dragging the horrors of the past, screaming back into the forefront of my mind.
You are the noose,
wrapped around my neck.
Can you see the scars? They linger still,
finger-shaped bruises in a pretty purple painting on my ghost-white neck.
You are the noose,
wrapped around my heart, my mind, my soul,
my past.
You are the noose from which I dangle,
kicking, jerking, clawing at the frayed edges.
I’ll cut this fucker down, one of these days;
I’ll cut you down.
And then I’ll take those frayed bits and fashion the noose anew,
giving it a new home around your splotchy, bloated, corpse-like neck,
fathermine.
~
P.S. A big fat thank you to everyone who offered up ideas and made banners for me. I’m saving all of them and may rotate them out from time to time. Y’all rock my socks. All the damn time.
Holy shit, this is awesome! And I love the new look!
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You’re the bestest. Thank you! ❤
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De rien, ma chère amie! Hadn’t read any poetry from you in ages.
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I struggle with even calling it poetry. Feels good to hear it, though! 🙂
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Don’t sell yourself short, Stéphanie. It’s good poetry.
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Thank you, puddles. ❤
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You remember my nickname! Yay!!!! 😁♥
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Splish splash! 😀 ❤
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Love the new look… will you be switching out the banners? Looking forward to seeing them also.
Love the poem too. Keep writing, lots of us missed you! Here’s hoping you keep doing it!
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I have plenty to rotate now, so I very well may!
Thank you sosupermuch. I missed y’all, too!
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Steph, that was fantastic. Such fury! BTW, rockin’ socks sounds wonderful! 😉
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At least I didn’t say knockin’ the boots…heh.
Thank you!!
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That would’ve been fine, too. 😀
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Oh, the possibilities!
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Sequentially speaking, the boots would have to be first.
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But what if I’m not wearing socks? :O
(I totally am. I’m not a complete heathen. Except when I wear flip-flops. Stupid company dress codes.)
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Flip flops and socks can only be worn if one is driving a Vespa.
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I’ll pass on the Vespa. Unless it’s going somewhere fun. Yes, bring me a vespa!
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Only if you promise to wear sandals/flip flops and socks.
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Oh, it’s a deal. I’ll even throw on a pair of culottes.
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You have to be careful with culottes. They’re kind of baggy and can catch an errant bee. That would be bad.
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Hmm. I didn’t consider the bees. I never consider the bees. Wouldn’t want an errant stinger.
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My point exactly. While the possibility is there for an errant daffodil entering your pant leg while on the Vespa, it’s not as probable as a bee with a stinger.
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Hmm good point. And if the daffodil did make it through, the bee would surely be more likely to follow!
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Or it was already in the flower. I’m starting to think that culottes are a non starter. Unless you like bees in your bonnet, and other places.
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How did I miss this?
I’m okay with stingers…so long as they aren’t venomous.
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Why won’t those damned skeletons stay in the closet where I left them???
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Right? I wish… 🌸
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Wow. How I have missed you. Amazeballs. I love your new banner!!!
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You’re amazing! Thank you! 🌸💜🎉
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Deep as hell. I love the banner. Very cool.
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Thank you, Tikeetha!
And this particular banner came from a designer on fiverr! Thank you for that!
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