Y’all. Something is up with Oregon. I mean aside from triple-decker man buns, obsessions with microbrews and whiskey, and wannabe hipster bro-boys. I’m talking about the ridiculously high ratio of gingers to the rest of the population. At least, I mean that’s at least a thing in the dating pool. Not that I’m complaining; some of these gingers are smokin’ fuckin’ hot. (Uhm. Maybe most of them. Which is weird, because as an aesthetic, I was never interested in gingers. I mean, I’ve always been a fan of ginger flavor – ginger beer, ginger snaps. But ginger boys? Too…pale. Oregon is changing my mind.)
If you stacked all of my dates up on a weirdass live human bar chart, the tallest bar would be gingers, by far. (This is not intentional.) At one point, I may or may not have been casually dating three gingers at once. One of them was pretty simple, but funny and wild as hell. Another of them was a super country libertarian boy (yeah, I passed pretty hard and fast on that one). The third was fucking brilliant – this weird dichotomy of former military and current anarcho-philosopher turned psychotherapist with a fucking PhD. Oh…was he yummy. Lemme tell ya… Too bad he was emotionally inaccessible and a bit of a sociopath.
Last night, I had a date with yet another ginger. A math professor. Yep. Another weilder of a PhD. (No, stop picturing a 65 year old in a tweed blazer with elbow patches. Fuck, I just planted that image, didn’t I? Stop picturing it!) Shy and awkward over text. Funny, witty, and deep in person. In between covertly checking him out (holy shit – since when do nerdy geek boys lift??) and getting coached on how to play pool, I was alternately laughing my ass off and diving off into deep conversations about math, the universe, string theory, self, other, the Bhagavad Gita, and Eastern Philosophy. With wild fucking abandon. Yeah, that’s the kind of thing that rocks my socks.
We did a bar crawl – my first ever, I think – and drank. A lot. Well, my a lot is just a little compared to seasoned drinkers. I don’t drink often. So, the two jumbo-sized ciders and the sangria had me in orbit. (Oregon makes sangria with wine AND tequila, y’all, at least at rooftop bars in college towns. My name is Stephanie, and I approve this message. (That fucker also came in an oversized, don’t think you can call that a pint glass anymore, pint glass.)) I wasn’t wasted – those three drinks were spread over about three hours – but boy, I got spirited and (only slightly) wobbly.
We walked it off, then looked at the stars. Man, there’s so much less light pollution in that little town than where I live. It was glorious. We listened to Irish folk music and Ravi Shankar and had the deepest conversation I’ve had in ages, punctuated with sass and smartassery, crude jokes, and ribald laughter.
It was incredible.
That charming, brilliant, Irish bastard.
And it’s almost a 100% certainty that I’ll never see him again.
Why? Because out of this abundance of gingers, only one of them has been interested in more than a single date (see simple but wild boy – and he’s not in it to win it, either). And it seems the smarter and more philosophically inclined they are – ginger or not, but especially the gingers – the less likely they are to be interested in anything even remotely serious.
Unfortunately, what dating is teaching me is that my interests border on the fucking unattainable. If the guy isn’t a deep thinker, I’m not interested. If the guy can’t banter, I’m not interested. If we can’t talk until 4 in the morning (yep, last night was a late one) about anything and everything, with no filter, I’m not interested. If we can’t enjoy comfortable silences, I’m not interested. If all conversation is all about him, I’m not interested. If all conversation is all about me, I’m not interested. If conversations are about things or people, I’m not interested. If conversations aren’t about ideas and thoughts and philosophies and weird little eccentricities of self and universe, I’m not interested. If I’m not laughing until I’m doubled over in pain, I’m not interested. If he isn’t a little….wild, rough around the edges, I’m not interested. And every. Single. Motherfucker. That I’ve met that has those qualities – the ones I AM interested in, are “ethically non-monogamous” or “polyamorous” (welcome to fucking Oregon) or strictly interested in an “FWB” or “NSA” situation (yeah, I’m learning a lot of fucking acronyms lately).
And it feels strangely like the longer this carries on, the less interested *I* am in something long-term and serious. Sometimes I think I’m *too* fucking adaptable, because I don’t want to compromise my personal convictions, the ones I have just for me. But at the same time, I don’t want to go back to being a complete and utter hermit, either, afraid of the opposite sex and what they do or don’t want from me.
Dating is nice. But it’s also terrible and unpredictable and scary. And I’m fucking sick of it. And also wish I had one tonight. (Oh wait, I did. But after the stellar night with the Jacked and Ginger Buddha, there’s no way I could meet this other guy. It would have been a soul-sucking exercise in tedium. So I canceled.)
See. If I don’t even know what the fuck I want, how can I expect others to know what they want? I mean. Every time someone does want something serious with me, I’m the one that’s not interested. I “don’t feel a connection,” or something on that laundry list of elusive but critical qualities is missing. I’ve totally ditched boys for lack of banter. And I just ditched one for lack of depth/connection. I don’t wanna talk about tv shows and YouTube political commentators all the damn time. I wanna talk about Plato and Buddhism and Experiencers/Enlightenment. Fuck those fucking gingers for dangling that fucking carrot and running off because they wanna be deep…with a shallow girl.
Fuck those fuckers for making me think it’s possible, because there’s no way in fuck I can settle now. I know what’s out there. I’ve known it for a long time, and I’m just getting it reinforced now and then. (Don’t get me wrong, most of the people I’ve been on dates with are horrible. I have some horror stories to share with you people! But sometimes…the veil is parted, and I get a glimpse of what could be. And I know…fucking. I know, I’m not digging too deep or searching for something imfuckingpossible.) So fuck those guys…and thank those guys.
Fucking gingers.
Gingers are kind of magical. They’re kind of like the Virgin Mary on Toast; they show up once to turn everything completely upside down, but you can almost never replicate the experience. Or something. I don’t know, I’m kind of out of it right now. Here’s hoping one of the red-haired bastards sticks around for you!
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See! You say you’re out of it, and I say…YOU TOTALLY GET IT! 😂
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Yo, Ginger lover! Liz here!! Have you read any of Penny Reidʻs stuff? Winston Bros are all gingers and Iʻm little bit in love with them. I wish you well in the search. Glad youʻre not settling. 🙂
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Liz! Hi! 🤗🌸
Ginger lover … 😂 I don’t know Penny Reid. Hmm. I shall search!
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My second marriage was to a ginger. She was not deep or well-educated. In fact, she was needy, selfish, and, in a lot of ways, immature. Unfortunately my heart blinded me from those things a long time. Now…I have a ginger son who is a lot like his mother. I’m doing my best to parent those things out of him…
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It’s tough clearing our minds of things our exes taught us to expect from others, even those who look like them, do the same kind of work, etc.
I’m glad your son has you to help influence and guide him away from the negative attributes.
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It IS tough clearing that stuff from our minds. I’m still struggling with that. Hopefully, though, you find what you’re looking for.
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Thank you…I make it sound like I’m looking for a smartass Buddha or something. But really, just a guy who can carry a decent conversation, has a great sense of humor, and enough depth to wanna dig deeper? That’s all I really want.
Time will tell. And…I’m right there struggling with ya. Perhaps not as daunting of a task since I’m not a parent, and I only have myself to worry about the impact on. 🌸
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At least you know what you want. That’s a good start.
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Gotta start somewhere… 🙂
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Indeed.
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I’m a ginger and I don’t support this message! lol maybe it’s just ginger men? I would never date a ginger man! But as a ginger woman, I am all for the commitment and it going somewhere and all those lovely things you mentioned. If I was a guy and lived in Oregon I’d be down for a date with the Stephellaneous 😉
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Hahaha! You just made me laugh and snort and and…that was great! 😱😂🙈
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Then my comment was a success! Woohoo!!
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This is the gingerest post I’ve ever read, which is a compliment and far better than being called gingerist …
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Ha! Maybe I used to be a gingerist, but not anymore! 😂
That may change again!
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of the six guys I’ve dated, three were gingers. I apparently have a thing for them too. XD
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They’re like gremlins! You start with one, and suddenly they’re everywhere!
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When I was younger, looks were really important to me, now, intelligence and being able to hold a stimulating conversation are absolutely necessary – blue, black, ginger, polka-dot- whatever, so I totally see your point!
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Oh yes, I feel the same way. The ginger thing just strikes me as funny and more than a little bizarre. I’m used to brunette being the predominant hair color. And it still is here, but man the gingers are a strong second!
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Is there a Gingers, part two? There must be. Please. There MUST BEEEEEE!!!!!
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Oh there will be, my friend. But it won’t be a pretty one. You know how that ended. 🌸
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